Fuckery

 I love the entire earth 
  dust bunny, Claudia Wilson, grandmother clock, 24 years, Natasha Matrix, tara markov, cebe
Evelyn Luvtell
luv
flux
Erica Kane
Charlotte’s Web
miss mxyzptlk
marsha mathers
Legislatrix
tefe holland
kry infinity
evieluv222 
study guide
myriad
empty 
darth gock
4788.frank
bloke
mud
The Librarian
              samara the moth
dark krystal
rat kitten
Psycull
guillotina
sayble twinge
greg ore
idk who i am
lil probable cause
no bloodline
yellama devi
lil glass structure
heart sleeve
        mysticmonkey356
centrifugal horse
 macy's omen, rosemary hatequiet,
 Myriad Luvtell, Scatter Plot, 
 gathering of the multitudes of myriad, Grey Lorelei, 
 grey infinity, ignoto y libre, oracle of the continuous, 
 the grey, shelby butterson, frank pierce, Pterodactyl Fractal, paige sample, 18:18, 
 silent circle, grey skin, bloodsport, face assembly, eucharist swag particles, 
 glitch witch, (depersonalized, derealized), aunty prophecy, Mary Sum,
neuroplasticity
fetal trait
Everly Well
hexagone
tantrick
virtual piss
toothbrush ceiling fan comedian
dj clandestine activity
dj probable cause

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The tears I swallow turn to wax and choke me. they choke me and choke me and a bag is tightening over my head I breathe it in. I’m closed off from the rest of the world because who would ever have the time to hear all of this. I know I have the time. What the fuck else is there to do. I may be a crazy bitch but at least I’m not bored. Being bored is so nice like wow you have time to deliberate on a fun thing to do. That’s awesome! Some breathing room. I’ve never felt like I’ve had breathing room my entire life for even a second. I’ve been damned to the cave. I never got the key to the breathing room. Do you ever just sit in your own fucking putrid waste of existence and giggle a little? Shit I sound like the god damn Joker. I have an alter that constantly just says fuck off to everything like a little angsty goth girl, I think she’s the realest part of me. “Fuck Off,” it really encapsulates so much power. The power of confidence. Self Doubt? Fuck off. Someone bothering you? Fuck off. Something bothering you? Fuck off. I eat this shit for fucking breakfast. The beautiful part about being traumatized is I have lived to tell the tale of some fucking harrowing shit. So if situations feel like they won’t be resolved all I have to say is “Fuck Off.” I got a degree in fucked up shit and this shit is beginner level.

sequestering your assets
hit a lick on the nasdaq
i despise those who use jesters privilege to be an asshat
incels who live in a cave
depraved scum you a dirty glove
mist on my lense as im staring from above
i been omnipotent
the potential for love
is too great to pass
hurry, fast…
strikin while the irons hot
melting plates
as i contemplate

i never understand why people chase the moment. what is the moment. i appreciate the nice moments but theyre fleeting so why would i chase them. the moment happening and also being fleeting is the beautiful part of the moment. it’ll be over before you know it you’re mature for your age the darkwhat the fuck do you miss. do you miss telling me you want to rip my head off or telling me im a little piece of shit or forcing me to study till i cry. or yelling at me for trying to go anywhere or asking to spend the night anywhere. or was it when you made me work for you for years and years since i was a literal child and told me i didnt have the ability to work anywhere else. was it when you told me that the person who raped me was my problem to deal with and said i was gonna see him again anyways. or when you tried to force me to work in a place i saw him at where it was a very real possibility he could be there. was it when you said i dont care or i dont try because i asked a single question about how to do a task right. was it when you would get passive aggressive when id ask to go to the bathroom at work and then tell me to just drive myself and when id say i was going to youd tell me youd just drive me and continue to intimidate me about wanting to eat or use the bathroom and blamed me for not just driving myself. was it all those things you miss? was it crying to me while you were drunk and telling me about how bad your family treated you while i was depressed bc of how you treated me nonstop. i told you i couldnt handle it right now and tried to get you someone to talk to and you yelled at me for not being able to handle it.